Dec 20, 2012

Secret Affection

I saw you once but never thought it was special
I met you before but never thought it was the start
I talked with you but it's just the usual
I smiled at you and it was just typical.

I saw you again, was that a spark?
I met you again, and the mood was aglow
I talked to you again, I got so fuzzy
I smiled at you then just wished you'll always smile at me too.

Now I don't know how to put to places,
These rare emotions and unique sentiments
They are new and still cannot comprehend them
Is it admiration? Infatuation? True love? Or just friendship?

If ever I profess, will it be mutual?
If ever I confess, will you consider me special?
Or if ever I'll just wait, will this subside?
And hope that regret will not haunt my life.


~10:38 am
December 19, 2012
COB - 12

Dec 1, 2012

Make You Feel My Love

It's December! 24 days left 'till Christmas! Yey! 
                           
I'm always excited for vacations. Haha. But you can't blame a student like me. 

And so, to start this lovely month, let me share this special thing I do when I'm alone.
Honestly, very few of my friends know that I do this. Maybe one or three friends only? Haha. Cause really, I rarely sing! Ooops. It's supposed to be a surprise. Lol. What a joke. HAHAHA. Okay, I'm the only one laughing for myself. 
Oh well, the song is entitled Make You Feel My Love and was originally sang by Bob Dylan and popularized today by Adele's version.
If you want to hear me sing, cause you know, I'm telling you, it's a privilege hearing me sing and at the same time play the guitar, do watch my video. Haha. Just kidding! But really if you'll watch, please let me know how I sound, comment below. I accept constructive as well as destructive criticisms . ;)
If you don't want to watch me, then just read the lyrics below, it's wonderful. 



Lyrics:

When the rain is blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows and the stars appear
And there is no one there to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love

I know you haven't made your mind up yet
But I would never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment that we met
No doubt in my mind where you belong

I'd go hungry I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling down the avenue
There is nothing that I would not do
To make you feel my love

The storms are raging on the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret
The winds of change are blowing wild and free
You ain't seen nothing like me yet

I could make your happy make you dreams come true
Nothing that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends of the Earth for you
To make you feel my love

Nov 24, 2012

Blogs to read!

One month! I thought I'd never be back again. Haha. I was inspired to post a blog after knowing that my friends are back again to blogger. Hurray for that! But before I introduce them, I'll share some of the happenings lately in my life although they're not really significant. lol.

*Google
During the last few days of sembreak, I was hooked to Hunger Games. After watching the movie with my sister, we both decided to download the e-book from the net. We didn't start reading from the 1st book, instead we read the second one first which is the Catching Fire, reasoning that we already watched the 1st in the sequel. In two days, we finished the book. We weren't satisfied so we downloaded the next book which is Mocking Jay. And in two days again, we finished it. And still, we weren't satisfied so my sister decided that we read the book 1. And of course, we finished it no time! Haha. We were both engrossed with Katniss and Peeta! I like Katniss being so serious and brave and all. I love Peeta being so understanding and caring. If ever I'm going to make a book review, It'd be another post, I'll just save it the next time. (And yeah, it's going to be late again.)

I was really thankful during the first day of classes when I learned of that my grade in Financial Accounting 1 got higher! From a B minus to B! I was so excited I didn't even tried to know the reason behind. HAHA. All I know is that our grades got higher, and that's already fine with me. I have a reason in mind but I'm not sure of it so I'm not gonna write it. Haha.

Next is, uhhhmmm. I forgot the other things I'm posting. Oh well, maybe later.

So, here are the blogs which inspired me to post:

http://mgakatangahan.blogspot.com/ The owner of this blog is one of my first followers here in blogspot. Actually, we started having a blog at the same year. Okay, I'm going to make it easy for me. Haha. We were five classmates back then in 3rd year highschool when we started to blog. Blogging for us was for fun, a place to post our crazy stuffs in writing, a place where we can build our talent in poetry, write our rants, talk with each other through blog posts and everything. It wasn't made for some serious business such as earning, school stuffs or other important info. After months and years passed by, I am the only one remaing in blogspot. They left me. :( 
But then, just this afternoon, I checked my blogspot and I saw Kevin's post! Yey! I knew his not going to abandon his talent in poetry! I know he wouldn't like me to say things like this about his blog but I just I can't help it. Check his blog and his talent in writing poems! He is sometimes my inspiration in writing. ;)

http://framingadream.blogspot.com And this now is one of my best girlfriends. Lately she has also been inactive with blogspot but still active in blogging world because she's into tumblr. This cute girlfriend of mine is really good in drawing and photography. Not only that, she's a brainy! And a beautiful creature too! I have no doubts in that because birds of the same feather flock together. Yey! Lol. We both have the same course, BS Accountancy. We were classmates during freshmen in high school and freshmen in college. Before, I never thought that I would be a close friend of hers because she was really quiet, as far as I can remember, when we were in high school. But that was only a thought. Many things changed and now she is one of my closest friends. They motivate and encourage me to be CPA's in the future! Crossed fingers, soon! :)

There, check out their blogs! I'm sure your time will not be put to waste. Hihi.

I'm sorry for some typos and grammatical errors, I didn't proofread.  

 

Oct 22, 2012

Owl City

I'm counting off before 2nd semester starts. I'm not excited, eh? Haha. I only have 15 days left to do anything I want for this break then back to serious business. Eliciting! :D
The past week, I haven't been so productive yet not also lazy. Just moderate and relaxed. How loving is the feeling of being in the comfort zone, right? But dangerous. Idleness keeps us from doing things right. But this post isn't about being idle nor being hardworking or anything related to what I have mentioned above. It's about the title!

Just recently, I've become engrossed with Owl City. I don't know how I came up listening to their music, I just found myself one day that I'm downloading all their songs. Maybe it's because of the new hit song, Good Time of Carly Rae Jepsen with Owl City. Well anyway, Owl City, according to Wikipedia:
is an American electronica musical project by singer-songwriter and multi-instrumentalist Adam Young formed in 2007 in Owatonna, Minnesota. Young created the project while experimenting with music in his parents' basement. Owl City developed a following on the social networking site Myspace, like many musicians who achieved success in the late 2000s, before signing with Universal Republic in 2008.
Adam Young *credits to Google
So, Owl City isn't really a band. Maybe it's appropriate if call it a one-man band because only Adam Young does the lead vocals, programming, keyboards, piano, synthesizers, guitars, bass guitar, drums, percussion, and vibraphone. Basically, ALL. That is according to what I have read in Wikipedia. 
Owl City's music is described as indietronica and synthpop and is often described as belonging under the "electronic music" label.
Isn't he cute? ;)
Indietronica is a music genre which is a combination of indie, electronic, rock and pop music. While Synthpop is kind of music where the synthesizer is used as the dominant musical instrument.  That's why if you'll listen to Owl City's most popular song, Fireflies, you can really hear electronic musical instruments used.

I think this is the first reason why I liked Owl City. His music is so unique! And Adam Young started recording because of insomnia  at the basement of his parent's house. That's something to creativity!  Second reason is that Owl City also sings Christian songs. I rarely listen to secular singers but because Adam is a Christian singer I found it interesting to listen to his compositions. Lastly is the lyrics.
If you'll really take time to listen to his songs and at the same time read the lyrics, there are no harsh and violent words. Some say, he's songs are a bit emo-type, but I like it that way. Some are lively!

Here are some of my favorites Owl City's songs:

1. Fuzzy Blue Lights


2. Vanilla Twilight



3. Honey and the Bee


4. Gold


And here's a cover of Gold with my sister and brother.


This was just really intended for fun but then because it was my mother's birthday yesterday, we decided to make it a birthday video greeting to her since she's currently with my father in Malaysia. Haha. Sorry for the random faces! XD

If you want to get to know more about Owl City, click links here:


Adam Young Music
Owl City Website
Owl City's MySpace Account
Facebook Account
Owl City's Twitter Account

His newest album is Midsummer Station. I think I'm a fan already. <3 font="font">
Happy Monday!

Oct 17, 2012

Oh, life! (Random Post 102)

Finally! It's sembreak already! My first day should've started last Friday but then we still had to take this remedial comprehensive examination in Financial Accounting 1 last Monday.  The exam is like a grade puller, if I termed it right. Haha. If we are not satisfied with our grade or if our grade is already under the cut-off grade, we can take that exam so we can pull our grade higher. Yep! That’s why I called it grade puller, but only higher. Oh well, so I took the exam, hoping that my B minus can still go higher to B since I just need one point to achieve that grade. And to make this long and non-sense story short, I didn't made it to B. Huhuhu. Here’s a print screen of my grade:


Haha. While talking to Papa and Mama over Skype. :D
This is life. You’ll get only what you have worked out. And I did not work out hard, I deserve B minus. But I’m thankful, of course, because I was able to pass. Financial Accounting is really hard; I must say if you’ll not study well. But it was fun studying assets.

Consequently, because of the exam, my official sembreak started yesterday. At sinulit ko yun! Haha. I spent my whole Tuesday at Aira’s house, with my best girlfriends, SUBO! I hadn’t seen them for almost 3 months and I missed them much! We ate, laughed, watched a horror movie, took pictures, and just had a good time to our heart’s content. After exhausting our minds with Financial Accounting, we deserve that moment. Here are the results of our insanity!

From left to right: Me, Wendy, Jom, Elle, Chi

Aira? Where art thou?


We're just so cute aren't we? Lol.

It’s just so much fun to spend some time, even for a day with them.

And this day? I was really planning not to be productive. Haha. I’m so mean. But I need to be a good Ate to my brother. Since he needed to buy some foods for their educational fieldtrip tomorrow, I decided to go with him to the grocery and buy items. We had a date :”).

At Dunkin' Donuts
Just a random post. I miss blogging. :)

Oct 10, 2012

Whattodo?

What I really wanna do now? I want to write!!! The plot, the setting, the characters. They are already here, bugging my mind, telling me to give them life. But my mind has been so preoccupied by so many things lately - school requirements, final exams, money, GPA, friends . Now I don't know how to start, where to start. My environment does not also coincide with my emotions. Sometimes I want to go back to my old bed, sometimes I want to go home, sometimes I want to have my own study table. Just to get back the emotion of writing. I don't know, I just think I need those things so I can write. Oh, and I'm planning to submit this story, if God permits me to finish it until Monday, to Saranggola Blog Awards. I just need to change some elements so it'll correspond to the theme, "LAKBAY." I'm not expecting to be awarded nor win, just want to share my passion in writing. Okay, updates soon!

It's sembreak already! I can feel already late night movies and late morning wake-ups. Haha. Okay, got to get back to my requirements. Ciao!

Oct 8, 2012

Another sleepless night


Here we are, trying to finish so many requirements in just one night! Now, how's that?
With me in the picture is Gladys, the one in yellow. Check her blog! http://saintgladys.blogspot.com/
Currently, I am creating a blog. Haha. While she is still finishing our past assignments that is to be checked tomorrow. She also need to finish our Financial Accounting Notes. I'm glad I'm already done with that. And another thing, we need to study for the this week is final examination! Oh my. This is going to be a busy week.
I'm really ironic. I post a blog whenever I'm busy. Haha.
Truth is, my mind and body are both tired, as in literally that I want to sleep for years. But sadly, we still have a week to go before sembreak. I promise myself that if I pass the cut-off grade for our major subject, I'll really give myself a gift! It's time for me to have a reward after all these sleepless nights.
Okay, gotta get back to work.
Good night! ;)

Sep 20, 2012

I'm back!


So, it's been a month since I last updated my blog! I missed this. And now I'm blogging in a hurry. 
I still need to study for tomorrow's Financial Accounting Test. I don't know why I blogged this untimely moment. I just felt the need to. Haha.

I didn’t go home for a month and so there are just so many things that happened to me the last few weeks. Sorrow, Happiness, Laughter, Cries. 

I got a conflict with friendship. It was my first time to experience such drama. I thought I was included with all the issues when in the end I was just one assuming lass. I regret that I didn't have this kind of relationship back in high school. I didn’t know how to handle them.
You see, I’ve been a hypocrite; pretending I like her when in fact everything she does irritates me. If people really close to me would read this, they might tell that this is not me. I am not that kind of person who is usually irritated by little acts of absurdity. I am actually aware already of my irrational ways. I don’t like comparisons. I don’t want to carry my own seat and tell myself that I am better than anyone else when in fact I am not. All these ridiculousness stressed me, seriously. Good news is that, I overcame it! I don’t have that friend whom I can tell all my problems but I have my mother (and my blog). I told her everything – what I feel, what were the situations, who were the persons involved. And I am just so thankful that she understood me and empathized with my feelings. BUT, although she comforted me, she made me realize the things that I have done wrong. She didn’t just side with me because I’m her daughter. She looked at the bigger picture and explained me the details. Reality is, truth hurts and reality is just so hard to accept. At first, I didn’t believe my mother. I am the one who is hurting; she is not, so I know everything – that was my thought. But I was wrong. I realized, through prayer and reading God’s word, that I needed to let go of pride. Yes, pride hindered me from understanding my friend. Pride thwarted me from accepting each other’s differences. And pride obstructed the way to a healthy and happy bond.
I am glad we have already settled things. I learned that I wasn't involved actually. My emotions and feelings got me carried away. Part of growing up! :D

This should be a long post but time tells me no. I’ll update more when I get back home tomorrow! Yey! <3 font="font">

Aug 9, 2012

Habagat Monsoon


Being unable to go out because we are living inside the university campus and having this very gloomy weather makes us ignorant of what is happening outside this huge, fenced territory. We are not updated of the news; we are not even informed accordingly of class suspensions.

Being accredited of Autonomous Status makes our university able to have control over classes that is why last week, when all other universities in Cavite don’t have class, we have. Haaaay. We were a bit disappointed but at the same time we were glad of not losing a day of doing nothing. Though truly, class rooms are just a few meters away from dormitories, walking under heavy rain is not easy. It’s cold, wet, muddy, and school shoes will have a possibility of wearing-out. But this week, circumstances are on AUPian’s side. Malacanang declared that there are no classes in all levels – elementary, high school and college. That’s why since Tuesday, August 7 until now, we don’t have classes.

Although people here are overwhelmed of this advisory (including me), I still feel worried and anxious about the happenings outside. I haven’t watched news yet but have read from the web and some friends from Manila text me about them and they are not in a good condition - floods in different places. I even learned from an off-campus classmate that there are no typhoons. I just knew that this is just a monsoon yesterday night from texts. I opened my Facebook account this morning and saw different kinds of wall posts, pictures, opinions, and unique stories:




















Here is something that really caught my attention:

This spread not only in Facebook but also in text messages last August 7, 2012. Photo not mine. Credits to the person who made this.
I don’t believe in coincidences but I believe in the Word of God.
I will not make any disagreeing assertions about this but I’ll share a bit of the prophecy in the Bible.
I believe that Christians are all aware that we are in the ‘end-of-the-world’ time, and the first thing people are asking is, what are the signs?
7 "Teacher", they asked, “when will these things happen? And what will be the sign that they are about to take place?’
9 “When you hear of wars and revolutions, do not be frightened. These things must happen first. But the end will not come right away.”
10 Then he said to them: “Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom.
11 There will be great earthquakes, famines and pestilences in various places, and fearful events and great signs from heaven.
25 There will be signs in the sun, moon and stars. On the earth, nations will be in anguish and perplexity at the roaring and tossing of the sea.
26 Men will faint from terror, apprehensive of what is coming on the world, for the heavenly bodies will be shaken.
Luke 21: 7, 9-11, 25-26 (NIV) 
Such phenomena, not only the situation of the Philippines but also of the other countries should not shock or fright us. But these must remind us that soon, all these sorrowful events shall come to end. That we must not point out to God and blame Him the cause of these. All are planned according to God’s perfect will. What we just need to do is to fully depend on Him.

I’m even grateful that I am a Filipino. By just looking at those photos above, it makes me realize that my countrymen are valiant and strong. No matter what calamities strike, they still care to make fun out of it. They just smile and pray. The faith they have is what makes them brave. So proud to say that I am a Filipino. :)

*All photos are not mine. Credits to Facebook.com and to people who own them.

Aug 1, 2012

The Illusionist Movie Review


I was really amazed by this 2006 movie, The Illusionist.

I once mentioned in one of my posts that I am really late in watching movies. But anyway, better late than never. :D If you have viewed this movie already and had taken a moment watching even the beginning credits, you will find that it is based to a short story by Steven Millhauser, Eisenheim, The Illusionist. As a fan of classic literature and very fond of short stories, I searched the web, wanting to read the story after watching the movie yesterday night. I was somewhat curious to find resemblances between the two arts. Millhauser is not a popular writer that’s why his works are a bit hard to find. Good thing I found a PDF file!

Credits to Google.
After reading the story, I wasn’t that satisfied maybe because I already saw the movie and had known already about the features. But If I were to recommend you, read first about the story then watch later the movie.

The plot is about this popular magician who does tricks with striking originality. The common magical illusions other magicians do, he replace them with uncanny and notable inventions of his own. And this magician is Eisenheim. In the short story, the whole thing evolves only around Eisenheim’s incredible magic and competition with his rivals in the theatre world where they perform.

In Neil Burger’s adaptation of the movie, the story focused to Eisenheim’s love story. The story had been narrated from the point of view of the chief inspector, Herr Uhl, who was a fan of him but later became a secret investigator of Eisenheim’s tricks because of the crowned prince. I forgot to mention that the setting was in late 1800’s and beginning of 1900’s in Vienna. Eisenheim had only one love; they were childhood sweethearts but their relationship was unwanted because the girl came from a well-known family of their country while Eisenheim was a son of a cabinet maker only. Truth is, knowing the life of Eisenheim was even a mystery. It had only been read from newspapers and magazines. Little is known about his early life and his life outside the realm of illusion. This had made the story exciting and peculiar. It’s funny how I shifted my point of view from the protagonist to the narrator. If you are not focused on the movie, you will not understand how and why it came to that climax. I thought Eisenheim was just only skilful in making his own devices for magic and also dexterous in performing illusions. I even thought that he’s weak especially when it came to the part of spirituality and ghosts. But as the movie reaches its end, it proved that Eisenheim is intelligent and is exemplary with tricks and secrets.
Edward Norton (credits to Google)
My rating of this movie? 9/10. It should’ve shown more tricks and more competition with his fellow magicians just like in the story. But its revision and the setting up of the reason to Eisenheim’s vanishing was excellent! I also like that Edward Norton played Eisenheim’s character. He was perfect for it.

You can click here and read the short story.

Jul 31, 2012

No worries with nTrust!


Photo was taken in front of SM Department Store. Lining up for jeepney ride.

Is waiting for a long line in a remittance office takes much of your time? Ever experienced being cheated by illegal money transfer transactions? Want to send and receive money fast, safe, and cost effective? Then, I introduce you a new, trustworthy solution.

Recently, I have been so inactive in the blogosphere so now, what am I talking about this waiting, frauds and solution? Just read and later, be a part of it!

As a daughter of a father who works miles and miles away from our country, I know the uneasy feeling of staying long in a lengthy queue just to receive money from him. Plus, of course, I don’t want my father to worry of dishonest money businesses. So the solution? nTrust!

nTrust is the very first international network that lets its members deposit and transfer money, anytime and anywhere in the world, instantly and free!

Here’s how it works:
First off, because it is an online network, you must first be a part of what they call its community. Sign up an account for free and create your profile up to 100% complete so as to have access and do transactions with the site. Click this for their website. You will then be a citizen of the nTrust community where your neighbours are your family, friends or other people you transact with. This makes sending and receiving money quick and easy.       
Then, you must request for a personalized nTrust card. This is a prepaid MasterCard that can work as a cash card and ATM. It can be used wherever MasterCards are accepted. Upon request, it will be delivered to you after 7-10 days.

How to send money to the Philippines?
-Fill out and complete the details of your bank account under the Vault Tab first.
-After doing so, you will then see many options on how to deposit money. You can choose from bank wire transfer, direct bank deposit, checks and online banking.
-It depends on you on how to transfer money here in the Philippines but online banking is the most common way of depositing money. Many banks are offering this kind of transaction so no worries.
-You just need is the recipient’s e-mail address and of course make sure you have money in your bank account! If the recipient is already a member and your neighbour, sending is a lot easier. You can just select his name in the dropdown menu of your neighbours’ list.

There! Any amount is accepted! No minimum and maximum amount as long as your bank account has enough money.
nTrust abides by the standards of international banking so security is a sure thing. You can visit their website so you can read more about it.  nTrust is not a bank so they don’t use our moneys for loans and credit businesses. Transfer of money between nTrust citizens are free and as to what I have mentioned above, no minimum transaction.

In withdrawing, no need to line up in the remittance offices and fill up papers. If you are an nTrust member, just check your vault if money has already been sent and you can get your money through your nTrust card or through direct bank withdraw. But if you are not an nTrust citizen, still you don’t have any problems. An e-mail will be sent to you with a link, where you can read the instructions on how you can get your money.
Another benefit of nTrust is that you can have a ready access of your vault. The site is open 24/7. And transfers between nTrust citizens are FREE.
nTrust card can be loaded anytime, anywhere, instantly.

Photo Taken at the Adventist University of the Philippines Cafeteria, while we were in line waiting to get our food. Don't like waiting? Go to nTrust.

This is the very first reason why nTrust is a real convenience especially to our overseas Filipino workers who remit money to the Philippines. Instead of waiting in line just to send money, a click away is a solution and you can already work and do things you like with no worries!



Jul 19, 2012

Random Thoughts 101


You will know that you always look down while walking if in your everyday walk, you know what leaves and flowers color the pathways. If every week, you know that plants and grasses are already cut. If every month you know what tree withers. And if once in a while you have picked a coin in the road.

Promises are fragile. Easy to make, easy to break.

Some persons are a really great pretender. They can’t express through words and actions their real feelings that is why the external emotions expressed are only forced while the true sentiments are hidden. You will just know if a person has reached his limit when you have observed that at some point in time, he’s silent - no reactions, no words. Not knowing why. But then, because he is a great pretender, he will eventually get back to his fake self, where reality is a very strange thing.

Time never stands still. It runs and runs and runs.
You cannot even hold it and grip its neck to stop from working.
Time does not stop. It continues. On and on and on and on.


Have you ever felt wanting to be anonymous? Be so mysterious, secretive, and all? Like a spy or a stalker; or even a writer who has pseudonyms. Can a child already think of being like these? Maybe yes. I was. I even like being one.

Torn between two lovers, feeling like a fool. Loving them both is breaking all the rules.
Torn between two liars, feeling like a truth. Loving them both is against all rules.

Jun 23, 2012

18 days before my 18th!

When I celebrated last year my 17th birthday, I told myself that I'm going to count 18 days before my 18th birthday the next year. So here, ta! da! Haha. It's now 18 days before my 18th birthday! Wow. So fast.
Now what am I gonna do while counting the days? I was thinking about this every time my mind was idle this whole day. Should I take a picture of myself every day until my birthday? Or should I   post about what happened to my day? Or should I give or buy myself 18 gifts for 18 days? Or maybe I would just wish?
After being so selfish with these thoughts. lol. I decided to just make 18 wishes. I would really love to write about my everyday count down wishes here in my blog but unfortunately, I may not be able to do that due to some reasons I'll be sharing later.
Okay, so here is my first wish:
I wish to have a violin and of course, learn how to play it. Although I am not expecting for anyone to give a violin as a gift, buying one is really one of my plans this year. It is the second instrument next to piano which I really love to learn most when I was still a little kid. But then, guitar came so it was temporarily deleted in my dreams to play. But just recently, when I saw again people around me playing violin, I started dreaming of becoming a violinist again!
Here's a fact about me: I learned to play the piano and guitar by self-study. But I do not credit all to myself. There are lots of friends who helped me to be better. Of course I wouldn't learn the basics without them. Now, I don't know if I can self-study with violin. Another fact: Both my father and mother are not musicians. That's why I was asking myself before why I had this big interest with instruments when my parents don't even play one? My mother had learned few basics in guitar when she was still a teen that's why she's my first teacher. (She only knows the chords E, A, and D) While my father is a frustrated guitarist; he said he did not have the perseverance and even kept on telling me while trying to teach him before that his fingers are short that's why he really cannot learn. But then, they told me that their aunts and uncles know how to play some so maybe the interest runs in the blood.
Oh well, I just hope this wish will come true. Haha.

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Almost forgot! I'd love to share my wishes here but then back at the dormitory, I chose not to validate my internet account there because of studies. I need to be focused now with my course and I don't like any temptations. :)) Maybe I'll just validate if I already need badly the internet still because of school-related matters. Till next time!

PS: What are some of your wishes on your birthday? :)

Jun 11, 2012

Thoughts.

Maybe I need to get back to the new template provided by blogspot. I don't know, I just don't feel this classic template I'm using.
It's going to be a busy week for me so I have no time to visit blogs. I'll miss it. I'll miss this boring vacation.
Anyway, I need to study well starting tomorrow. I don't think I need the easy-go-lucky Jana. I need to hardworking Jana this time. I also need a good memory. My brain's quite not in its good condition lately because of stress. I need to prepare.
Minutes from now, I'll be back at the dorm. I really think I need to be away at the house for few days. I'm being a destroyer here. Last night I broke the kitchen table's glass, now the bathroom's sink. I think I need to get away now before I get to destroy other appliances. I'm not sure if we have internet access at the dorm. I'm going to miss the wi-fi here at the house. Haaay, I'll only be back home at some weekends. Just the thought of it makes me really sad. T_T No Foodssss.
Okay, got to go. Mother's getting angry.
Back to blogger template. :D I'l just edit this weekend. Babooosh.

Jun 10, 2012

A gift

"Worrying does not add length to your life." ~ Papa

I got sick this past week. Not even knowing why and how. Saturday afternoon, I didn't attend the afternoon worship then my body just started changing its state. Abnormal temperature, rashes, headache, and all that leads to fever. I don't know why. I was even so hyper the whole Friday then why got sick all of a sudden? The next day, Sunday, I can't see properly. The back of my eyes really hurt, looking at any light makes it worse. I also can't move and do things normally. Of course, because I have high fever, which made me nauseated. And I can't eat well. Besides losing appetite for food, food allergy can just attack me any time. I just hated being so sick!
Monday morning came. I thought I'd be alright but everything just got worse. I already took 6 Paracetamol Biogesic, 6th that morning but I just can't understand my body. Before, 1 pill is enough for me, two are already too much. But 6 in just almost two days?? Ugggghh. Rashes were scattered all over my body. Face, neck, back, arms, legs. I even blamed the pill for the rashes. My mother got worried already so we went to the doctor later that morning. They checked my urine, my blood, asked me questions. The result? Weakened Immune System. Just that. I thought I had dengue, malaria, or any serious infection because of what I was feeling. Oh no, I do not doubt the doctor, or the lab results. I was just dazed. I was suffering from a virus because of my weakened immune system.
The five days I was sick, I was able to realize things. With the help of my mother's 'the talks' and my father's 'words of wisdom', I had reflected few things that happened in my life this vacation. I got no one to share it with so I'm sharing it here:

  1. Over thinking will lead you to nowhere. 
  2. Health is wealth.
  3. Early to bed, early to rise. Makes a man healthy, wealthy, and wise.
  4. Go out, meet sunshine. Not staying inside facing the laptop's shine.
  5. You are you and I am I. Envy only creates self-destruction.
  6. Don't face the shadow of the present; don't live in the past; forget all the unwanted memories.
  7. Faith without works is dead.
  8. Pray, at the same time read the Bible.
  9. You cannot please everybody. If he doesn't like you, be it. You don't need to pretend to be another person just to make him like you.
  10. Friendship really matters to me. If a friendship is slowly dying, a piece of me starts to die too. Honestly, it's a weakness. But it's also a strength. So, beware.
  11. I realized I got sick because I was stressed. I was stressed because I got worried of the things I listed above.
There. Everything involved the the four aspects of life. Just a piece of an unsolicited advice:  
Don't wait to experience sickness, or poverty, or big problems in life before you appreciate it. Be happy with life, it's a gift. 

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It's 30 days before my 18th birthday! Yey, happy birthday to me.
I just remembered some words from my friends:
-Aging in inevitable. (From someone whom I told I don't want to get old)
-Age is just a mental concept, it doesn't really matter.. (From someone who doesn't want to tell his true age.)
Haha. Getting old. -_-
And it's 2 days before our classes start to resume. Oh no, my mind's still on its vacation. Haha. Anyway, Happy days ahead, guys! :)

May 30, 2012

White-clothed people


I once walked with white-clothed people.
Their faces were covered with handkerchiefs.
Their eyes were unseen because of sunglasses.

Late afternoon, I sauntered with them.
Though scourging heat blasted, we carried on.
Few would mind, they were feign.

The walk was dawdling and steady.
Though truly it was long and tiring,
The genuine never stopped to rest, not a even a minute.

Until we reach the expected point, 
An emotion was starting to stood out.
For we all saw the unwanted abode.

The dwelling place of the quiescent,
The domicile of better than the living.
The home of the sleeping and absent.

Sentiments were beginning to surge.
While some were subtle, still feelings were discerned.
But the most who have loved cannot be discreet.

I looked now at their uncovered faces, all wet and lonely.
I looked at their eyes, all swollen and pained.
But there was a glow. Deep and ambiguous.

Everyone was mourning, I was even sorrowful.
Cries, sobs, whispering.
Sympathies, verses, praying.

"Man's fate is like that of the animals;
the same fate awaits them both:
As one dies, so dies the other.
All go to the same place;
all come from dust, and to dust return."

The dead found its peace.
It shall no longer toil nor be in agony;
It shall no longer see evil.

The living are to be comforted.
It shall continue to eat, to drink, to work.
And be satisfied until it, too, shall reach its end.

All along, I was walking with the white-clothed people.
How I didn't notice, I was following the dead.
We were following our destiny.

I once walked with black-clothed people.
Their faces were covered with handkerchiefs.
Their eyes were unseen because of sunglasses.

Late afternoon, I sauntered with them.
Though it was rainy and cold, we carried on.

May 25, 2012

Literary Contest

Isang karangalan ang masali sa Top 10 ng Bagsik ng Panitik Writing Contest ni Sir Bino. Natutuwa lang ako kasi unang pagkakataon na sumali ako sa ganitong klaseng ng pa-contest sa mga bloggers at nasali pa sa Top 10. Hindi ko akalain na ang maikling kwento ko ay maka-top 9. Huwaw lang. Three years na kong blogger pero ngayong year lang talaga naging socially active sa blogosphere. At may naging result agad ang pagiging active. Parang nanalo lang ako sa Juan for All, All for Juan ng Eat Bulaga, "Hindi ko po expected. Maraming salamat po sa mga nagbasa at naka-appreciate ng aking kwento. Sasali ulit ako sa kung ano mang contest or kahit anong pakulo ng mga bloggers. Hoho."
O sya, yun lang po. Eto po yung badge na nakuha ko. Sayang eh, di nasali sa Top 3. Ganda sana ng prizes. Haha.



Eto naman po yung link ng maikling kwento na ipinasa ko, Click lang kung gusto niyo basahin: Ako si Totoy
Click lang din po sa badge para makita ang site ni Sir Bino. :)



May 15, 2012

Facebook Timeline

Tuesday. Usual, boring day. TV and net all day long.
Twitter, Facebook, Blogspot. Alt + Tab, paikot-ikot.
Nang bigla akong nainggit mag-tetris nung nakita ko sa Facebook Home ko yung isa kong friend na nakasent ng madaming lines. Edi laro naman ako. Siguro, 2 months din akong hindi naglaro nun. Tapos biglang sumingit yung kapatid ko, "Ate! Mata-timeline yang profile mo, naglaro ka eh."
Di ako naniwala nung una. Kontra-kontra pa ko sa kanya tapos nung tinamad na kong maglaro, at magpunta sa profile ko, ayun na nga. Timeline na. -_-

Hindi naman sa ayaw ko talaga mag-timeline pero ako kasi yung tao na hindi sumasabay sa uso. At isa pa, nag-aalangan akong mag-timeline kasi madami akong nababasa sa FB, naririnig, at nababalitaan na hindi nga daw maganda, magulo, etc.
Para sa'kin, ito yung ilan sa pros and cons sa Facebook Timeline:

Gusto ko ng Timeline kasi:

  1. Madaling kong makikita ulit yung mga past happenings na nailantad ko sa ibang tao.
  2. Madaling maka-access sa old photos. Di lang sa'yo, pati na friends mo. Kitang-kita pa agad kung kelan na-upload. Naka-timeline nga kasi.
  3. Kung mahilig ka lang din mag-stalk sa crushes mo, madaling-madali lang kung naka-timeline sya. Lalo na kung gusto mo pa lalo malaman kung anong nangyari sa kanya mula nang magkaron sya ng FB.
  4. All in one page na halos lahat.  
Ayaw ko ng Timeline kasi:
  1. Naguguluhan ako. Masyadong maraming nakalagay sa wall. Picture sa kaliwa, picture sa kanan, wall post dito, wall post dyan. Nahihilo ako. >.< Pero pwede naman yun alisin.
  2. Mabagal. Lalo na kung fail ang connection. Yung pagscroll down mo tapos hindi agad lalabas yung mga inaantay mo makita kasi mas madami pa dapat maunang magload.
  3. Cover photo. Matagal nga bago ko mapalitan yung profile picture ko, yung cover photo pa kaya? Haaaay. Mahina pa naman ako sa mga design-design na yan.
  4. Sa una, nakakawili balikan yung history, simula nang magkaron ng FB account, ganyan. Eh kaso, di ko naman laging gagawin yun eh.
  5. Wala lang, ayaw ko maki-gaya eh. Hehe.
Dahil hindi ko naman talaga sinasadya na magtimeline ako, parang labag lang sa kalooban ko na nagkaganon ang profile ko. Alam mo yun, binigla ka kasi. Hindi ako ready! Hahaha. Drama lang.
Ayun,sa mga di pa naka-timeline kung ayaw niyo pa, ingat lang sa paggamit ng applications sa Facebook, baka mabigla din kayo tulad ko. At sa mga naka-timeline na tulad ko, Hooray! Let's party! Chos. 
I must accept change. HAHA. Pero sa totoo lang, unang-una kong nagustuhan ang Facebook dahil sa simplicity nito. Pero kung nagiging bongga na talaga, wala naman akong magagawa.
Sa May 22 pa daw legally magiging timeline ang FB profile ko. Sa ngayon, ako palang daw nakakakita. Pero kung gusto niyo ko i-add as friend, sure! Why not? Click ME!
Ayun, opinion ko lang naman to. Kayo? What do you think?

May 9, 2012

Useful Ideas!

I have read another interesting e-mail! Haha.

You will definitely use at least 3 of the following tips:














Some tips I can actually use at home! So clever. :D

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