It's really difficult to get back here without a really good reason. But there's just so much going on in my head and there is really no way I can get them out of there except writing them out. But they are all so messed up, I don't know what to pick out first.

Like right now. What am I just doing suddenly here? After leaving for how many months, I thought it's impossible to get back again. But this is still my own little space here in the web so it's expected that I'll be coming back