Jun 23, 2012

18 days before my 18th!

When I celebrated last year my 17th birthday, I told myself that I'm going to count 18 days before my 18th birthday the next year. So here, ta! da! Haha. It's now 18 days before my 18th birthday! Wow. So fast.
Now what am I gonna do while counting the days? I was thinking about this every time my mind was idle this whole day. Should I take a picture of myself every day until my birthday? Or should I   post about what happened to my day? Or should I give or buy myself 18 gifts for 18 days? Or maybe I would just wish?
After being so selfish with these thoughts. lol. I decided to just make 18 wishes. I would really love to write about my everyday count down wishes here in my blog but unfortunately, I may not be able to do that due to some reasons I'll be sharing later.
Okay, so here is my first wish:
I wish to have a violin and of course, learn how to play it. Although I am not expecting for anyone to give a violin as a gift, buying one is really one of my plans this year. It is the second instrument next to piano which I really love to learn most when I was still a little kid. But then, guitar came so it was temporarily deleted in my dreams to play. But just recently, when I saw again people around me playing violin, I started dreaming of becoming a violinist again!
Here's a fact about me: I learned to play the piano and guitar by self-study. But I do not credit all to myself. There are lots of friends who helped me to be better. Of course I wouldn't learn the basics without them. Now, I don't know if I can self-study with violin. Another fact: Both my father and mother are not musicians. That's why I was asking myself before why I had this big interest with instruments when my parents don't even play one? My mother had learned few basics in guitar when she was still a teen that's why she's my first teacher. (She only knows the chords E, A, and D) While my father is a frustrated guitarist; he said he did not have the perseverance and even kept on telling me while trying to teach him before that his fingers are short that's why he really cannot learn. But then, they told me that their aunts and uncles know how to play some so maybe the interest runs in the blood.
Oh well, I just hope this wish will come true. Haha.

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Almost forgot! I'd love to share my wishes here but then back at the dormitory, I chose not to validate my internet account there because of studies. I need to be focused now with my course and I don't like any temptations. :)) Maybe I'll just validate if I already need badly the internet still because of school-related matters. Till next time!

PS: What are some of your wishes on your birthday? :)

Jun 11, 2012

Thoughts.

Maybe I need to get back to the new template provided by blogspot. I don't know, I just don't feel this classic template I'm using.
It's going to be a busy week for me so I have no time to visit blogs. I'll miss it. I'll miss this boring vacation.
Anyway, I need to study well starting tomorrow. I don't think I need the easy-go-lucky Jana. I need to hardworking Jana this time. I also need a good memory. My brain's quite not in its good condition lately because of stress. I need to prepare.
Minutes from now, I'll be back at the dorm. I really think I need to be away at the house for few days. I'm being a destroyer here. Last night I broke the kitchen table's glass, now the bathroom's sink. I think I need to get away now before I get to destroy other appliances. I'm not sure if we have internet access at the dorm. I'm going to miss the wi-fi here at the house. Haaay, I'll only be back home at some weekends. Just the thought of it makes me really sad. T_T No Foodssss.
Okay, got to go. Mother's getting angry.
Back to blogger template. :D I'l just edit this weekend. Babooosh.

Jun 10, 2012

A gift

"Worrying does not add length to your life." ~ Papa

I got sick this past week. Not even knowing why and how. Saturday afternoon, I didn't attend the afternoon worship then my body just started changing its state. Abnormal temperature, rashes, headache, and all that leads to fever. I don't know why. I was even so hyper the whole Friday then why got sick all of a sudden? The next day, Sunday, I can't see properly. The back of my eyes really hurt, looking at any light makes it worse. I also can't move and do things normally. Of course, because I have high fever, which made me nauseated. And I can't eat well. Besides losing appetite for food, food allergy can just attack me any time. I just hated being so sick!
Monday morning came. I thought I'd be alright but everything just got worse. I already took 6 Paracetamol Biogesic, 6th that morning but I just can't understand my body. Before, 1 pill is enough for me, two are already too much. But 6 in just almost two days?? Ugggghh. Rashes were scattered all over my body. Face, neck, back, arms, legs. I even blamed the pill for the rashes. My mother got worried already so we went to the doctor later that morning. They checked my urine, my blood, asked me questions. The result? Weakened Immune System. Just that. I thought I had dengue, malaria, or any serious infection because of what I was feeling. Oh no, I do not doubt the doctor, or the lab results. I was just dazed. I was suffering from a virus because of my weakened immune system.
The five days I was sick, I was able to realize things. With the help of my mother's 'the talks' and my father's 'words of wisdom', I had reflected few things that happened in my life this vacation. I got no one to share it with so I'm sharing it here:

  1. Over thinking will lead you to nowhere. 
  2. Health is wealth.
  3. Early to bed, early to rise. Makes a man healthy, wealthy, and wise.
  4. Go out, meet sunshine. Not staying inside facing the laptop's shine.
  5. You are you and I am I. Envy only creates self-destruction.
  6. Don't face the shadow of the present; don't live in the past; forget all the unwanted memories.
  7. Faith without works is dead.
  8. Pray, at the same time read the Bible.
  9. You cannot please everybody. If he doesn't like you, be it. You don't need to pretend to be another person just to make him like you.
  10. Friendship really matters to me. If a friendship is slowly dying, a piece of me starts to die too. Honestly, it's a weakness. But it's also a strength. So, beware.
  11. I realized I got sick because I was stressed. I was stressed because I got worried of the things I listed above.
There. Everything involved the the four aspects of life. Just a piece of an unsolicited advice:  
Don't wait to experience sickness, or poverty, or big problems in life before you appreciate it. Be happy with life, it's a gift. 

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It's 30 days before my 18th birthday! Yey, happy birthday to me.
I just remembered some words from my friends:
-Aging in inevitable. (From someone whom I told I don't want to get old)
-Age is just a mental concept, it doesn't really matter.. (From someone who doesn't want to tell his true age.)
Haha. Getting old. -_-
And it's 2 days before our classes start to resume. Oh no, my mind's still on its vacation. Haha. Anyway, Happy days ahead, guys! :)
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